Musings on Returning to Paradise China
A motorbike skids past the front end of a blue taxi. Homemade engines of trucks chug up tiny hills. The ocean wind blows cool in the humid sun. Waves crash like towers on the side of a beach. The beep of the horns and unidentifiable smells rise up from the streets. Orange ladies sweeping the road with brooms fit for witches. A store clerks sloths under a fan, a mans betel soaked teeth squirt red, enchanting umbrella ladies click by in their heels and friendly smiles of curiosity cut through the heat in the air. The banana lady, a bowl of breakfast noodles and some familiar faces. Palm trees and rats. Surprising rains and fresh fruit. Open drains and sand in my feet. The hum of my motorbike and click of the door. I’m home.
These are the general sights of unpredictability and calm i have come to love while living in China. I live in Sanya on Hainan Island, at the most southern point of all China. Most people living outside of China have never heard of this island paradise. However, it has shaped the last year of my life and will continue to mould my future. A hidden gem and emerging international destination. It is bittersweet being back after an excellent holiday in Canada with many amazing people I had been missing. A whirlwind tour that could never disappoint.
But here i am back on the island of Hainan. I always have to remind myself that i do in fact live here. On this beautiful piece of Chinese Island. A world a way from my Canadian home, wondering what this year may bring. Who will i meet and where my legs will take me. It’s almost like being given a clean slate, where anything is possible. My motivations have changed and my goals are larger. This year is everything that i want to make or take from it. That is the most exciting part. I am in complete control.
By being lucidly involved in each day, being motivated and having grand goals you are able to create a reality that is your own. The more honest you are with yourself then the more you can achieve and the happier you will be. If you cant be honest to yourself, then your missing the boat. Create the identity which represents the inner you. The one that is calling out to live. The one you’ve been hiding behind. Make your world tick a mile a minute. Time shouldn’t drag, even though it is your enemy. So as I look ahead to another year of the unknown, I blink with a smile. I open my eyes and sigh with a relief that I am exactly where I want to be. Luck is only a small part of it and i don’t really believe in that sort of thing. I believe ‘luck’ is what you make of it. This is your life. Only you can make it spin the full circle. Kick down the doors of doubt and wake up knowing you’ve already arrived.